Life gives reminders. Sometimes they are reminders we need to hear, like pockets of wisdom; other times, these reminders punch us in the face. Yesterday was a day of reminders. Emotions, as I was reminded, are fleeting. None of them are meant to last. They are meant, if you keep your eyes open, to make a deposit into your emotional bank account, only to be quickly followed by a withdrawal.
While most of the day was relatively uneventful within the last three hours of my day through this morning I've been reminded how unattached to any one emotion we can be. I was tagged in a photo on facebook only to see that a piece of my jewelry had been copied by another artist. As a surge of anger hit me, I was also confronted by a calm that allowed me to decide that this person's need to copy my work for his own gain, or they charitable gain he claimed it was for, didn't have to affect me. I needed to have faith in the universe, so to speak, that he would be taken care of. I told myself and the others it would affect to let it go and move on.
From there, my usual late night kiddo wanted to go to bed early. Translation: mom gets some extra time to herself. SCORE. This looked like a much needed ending to the rest of my evening. I love, love, love my kiddo. However, the wee hours of the day end tend to leave me energy spent and a bit more testy than either of us sometimes find enjoyable. While I was doing pretty good, an extra hour sounded like something I was definitely down for. And then my night hit the jackpot.
What I thought was a mistaken pocket dial turned into finding out I had won a SADDLE. Wait, what?!? Yep, you heard that right. I won a SADDLE! I'm still in the process of wrapping my head around that whole thing. That was, in part, because my kiddo's attempt at any bedtime quickly derailed. Countless attempts at putting her to bed were unsuccessful. Through screaming, tears, negotiations, everything failed. Upstairs. Downstairs. Eventually, exhaustion won over for both of us. As I sat trying to recap what had unfolded in the last couple hours I marveled at our emotional capacity. And was quietly grateful for the time change that was giving me an extra hour to sleep.
Fast forward to the next morning... in the midst of all these ups and downs, I embraced the morning only to have the zipper on my riding boots go bust. This was, of course, after I dismissed a pair of rare already made in my size boots! So, at this point I'm not sure if I should embrace my luck, or my capacity for huge upswings of joyful emotions, ex. winning a SADDLE, and go out and buy that horse I've had my eye on or figure my luck has run out! Either way it's a deposit in and a withdrawal out, and a deposit in and a withdrawal out.